Wednesday, November 23, 2005

I Don't Believe...


I don’t believe

I used to believe there was so much inside me
That was bursting to come out
To see the world
I used to believe
That I could make a difference
To someone
Somewhere
Sometime
I used to believe that someone would appreciate me
The way I would appreciate him
That what was inside of me
Would shine
The way others shined on me
I used to think that I could start anew
A clean slate
Wherever I went
Far away where no one knew
Me and my past
I used to think I could create a new face
And that people could see past it
And look inside my heart
My mind
I tried so hard
To be someone else
To be the people around me
And always failed
But yet being myself
Will never be enough
I will never shine
Just being me.
*Rajwinraj*

Depressed...


Depressed

When I sit at home
Staring out at the pouring rain
Wishing I was in Rome
Enduring all the pain
I feel my heart beat
And I feel myself bleed inside
My tears start flowing
Like a river running
Outside I am a happy child
Because I have on a fake smile
While inside I am cold
And I weep a mile
As I stare out the window
Tears of sorrow; continue to flow
My heart continues to break
As the wooden floor continues to creak
I feel messed up
I am depressed
Everything as I knew it
Has vanished like dew
As days pass
My depression ceases
As I know God Almighty
Who brought me out, will show me
How to live life to the fullest.

*Rajwinraj*