MOMENT BY MOMENT

MOMENT BY MOMENT

At that moment
An endurable uncertainty
Moving overwhelmingly
Of how would it be then
As the seconds, minutes and hours ticking away
As the days and months passing by
As the time flies
Turning and spinning around preciously
Not to be missed
Filling the heart with affection
Cherishing the soul with care
Changing the life with splendor
Make known of the presence
For the absence is tearing the heart apart
Pulling, twisting, piercing deeply

Lost
Still
Unbearably
Sagging with agony
Of the abundance of love
Of revealing what is hidden underneath
Brightly blazing burning passion
Strongly
Deeply
Wanting to be with you
To make known to you
At this moment
Not to be ignored,
Prevailing
Uncertain no more
For I am
With every breath
Here, there and everywhere
For you

~~*Rajwinraj*~~

Just A Smile...

Just a Smile

I want you to know but I can't
Maybe I don"t have the courage to
but what I fear is you drifting away from me
I'd rather you not to know

Time just passes without me knowing
It was just like a gust of wind that blew past
How long have I not seen you
Longer than I can ever imagine

I sit here waiting for you
But you are somewhere else where I am not
I await you but you just didn't appear in front of me
You passed by me but I didn't know

Because you were behind me
I can't stop thinking about you
No one has made me stop doing everything
But sit here and just wait

To me you are the world but you just don't realise that
Rain or shine I sit here still waiting
Yet you still don't appear

My patience has reached its limit
But I am still sitting here waiting for you
I am not angry
I am not leaving
But I am still waiting hoping that you will turn up

The world has passed by
But I am still waiting for you
I still don't see you

My time is up
I have to leave

Before I left
You appeared and smiled at me
I smiled back and left...

*Rajwinraj*

Shadow Lovers..

Shadow lovers

Living a dark existence

Incongruous imagery that seems so real

Poignant with beauty from a distance

Familiar yet unknown, ideal yet surreal



Elegantly conquering the night with a dance

Anxiety mixed with excitement, although afraid

Holding on to moments, taking that chance

Remembering every movement and word said



Before the night’s tranquility flows to dawn

For the weight of time is felt heavily upon

As each second passes points to pierce

And reality emerges; they become sadden with fears

The shadow lovers shed their silent tears

Bidding each other goodbye by the sunlight’s beam

For their existence was merely a memorable sweet dream.

*Rajwinraj*

Missing My Baby

Missing my baby

As the cloud darkens

and begins to rain,

Your love

keeps me warm.

As the thunder booms

in the sky,

I feel comfort

in your loving concern.

In the midst of heavy downpour,

I fear losing you.

What is the purpose of life,

when you are not in it?

Chasing dreams of our own,

we see each other less and less.

Is this what love is all about –

being apart from each other?

If only time could have stood still,

on the day that we fell in love.

*Rajwinraj*

Jealousy

Jealousy is anger, jealousy is hate

Jealousy may lurk behind any hidden gate

Jealousy is deadly, under the night sky

Jealousy is a poison, that many die by.

Jealousy may end as soon as it begins

It may also go on without your consent

Jealousy can be a tool, controlled by one

It may also be a weapon, maximising the damage done
Ideal, fantasies, limited by a gate

Narrow minded people are those whom I hate

They may work up a fierce debate

In the end all their brains can’t fill up a crate

Open your eyes, and see

What I mean by reality

You noticed the others but forgot about me

So suffer the effects or my jealousy.

~~Rajwinraj~~

The Prayer

The Prayer

Lord, bless me to have peace within my heart
Help me make each day a beautiful start
Help me understand how I can make a difference
And the raison d’etre of my existence
Bless me with the courage to voice what’s right
In this world where reality does bite
Within the range of possibilities that I can change
Bless me with the will to do so for the better
And for those things that I can’t change
Help me to gracefully accept and not be bitter
For I trust in You that You have Your reasons
As mysterious that I won’t be able to comprehend
I believe You will show me why in another season
When the time is right, the explanation You will send
Bless me with the wisdom to then understand
As there is no highway to heaven on earth
Guide me in this world in each of my steps
Before I take my last breath.

*Rajwinraj*

To

To begin with, entering its chance, knowing

To digest the inconceivable

To let in the oversized

To simply allow the thought of it

to the willingness to bare it all, lies, lies...

To see and never to see again

to know... to never see again

To the one whom once was there, indulged

To the deepest core in care, i see in vain

To the strands of knowledge of passing time

to the folds of thoughts

to all that you've given, all the bright signs

To the gloom which follows

To its occasion when darkened souls

To the slight tear in its eyes

to the departing of love, abyss...

To have loved and lost,

and simply never having its love at all...

*Rajwinraj*

I am only Human

I am only Human

MOST people don’t know it
But deep inside one’s eyes
Lies a dark black pit
Of sorrow and grief

Yet as I lay on my bed
I think of the sad eye
That keeps appearing in my mind
But no answers come to me

I try to help the person in pain
Yet nothing is gained
I stare dumfounded against the darkness
Still no light appears through the blindness

I felt pressured
Like the world was turning around
It’s as if I had to find a cure
For everything has to be found

People come to me
With broken hearts and souls
Expecting me to be a source of comfort
While inside, I weep along

I know not what to do
It’s not like I can do anything
I feel like telling them
I can’t give them all the answers

But there is one person who can
And that is the person in heaven
who consoled me when I am down
And that is my Father in heaven

With that I feel blessed
I am a human
I may have failed
But it is all in the plan because I am only human

*Rajwinraj*

I Don't Believe...

I don’t believe

I used to believe there was so much inside me
That was bursting to come out
To see the world
I used to believe
That I could make a difference
To someone
Somewhere
Sometime
I used to believe that someone would appreciate me
The way I would appreciate him
That what was inside of me
Would shine
The way others shined on me
I used to think that I could start anew
A clean slate
Wherever I went
Far away where no one knew
Me and my past
I used to think I could create a new face
And that people could see past it
And look inside my heart
My mind
I tried so hard
To be someone else
To be the people around me
And always failed
But yet being myself
Will never be enough
I will never shine
Just being me.

*Rajwinraj*

Depressed...

Depressed

When I sit at home
Staring out at the pouring rain
Wishing I was in Rome
Enduring all the pain
I feel my heart beat
And I feel myself bleed inside
My tears start flowing
Like a river running
Outside I am a happy child
Because I have on a fake smile
While inside I am cold
And I weep a mile
As I stare out the window
Tears of sorrow; continue to flow
My heart continues to break
As the wooden floor continues to creak
I feel messed up
I am depressed
Everything as I knew it
Has vanished like dew
As days pass
My depression ceases
As I know God Almighty
Who brought me out, will show me
How to live life to the fullest.

*Rajwinraj*